one day you two will meet again
she’ll be wearing a dress that you never got to see
high heels and the lipstick that you never really liked,
but now it’s the most beautiful color you’ve ever seen
her nails will be painted your favorite color
her hair will be in curls down to her waist
and she will smell like your favorite of her perfumes

you will hear her voice
and it will take you back
you’ll remember all of the i love yous that she said and the prayers that she prayed
you’ll see her smile
you’ll remember how happy she made you
and you’ll remember what it felt like when her lips touched yours so gently
but so passionately
and how sweet she tasted
you’ll look in her eyes
and you’ll remember all the tears, all the apologies, all the i miss yous
you’ll remember the way it felt to leave her
to lose her
and it’ll sting
but only for a second
because you moved on a long time ago
but you’ll wonder
oh, you’ll wonder
you’ll wonder why you ever walked away from a woman like her.

I never told you I was sorry
for the way i sneered
and spat your name
because singing it
hurt too much
and I never told you
I was a coward
but you probably know that anyway
I never told you I never learned
to cope
with feeling anything
at all

but we don’t talk
and you don’t call
we don’t say anything at all
and I write love letters
on paper airplanes
and they fly
right over your head
I hate myself
for all the things
I’ve never said

I’m learning to let go
and my knuckles are white
from holding on tight
and it hurts like hell
but when I wake up in the morning
the sun will rise red
like the blood to my head
it’s a new day
and I never told you
but I’m gonna be okay